Those people who have to challenge every damn thing you say…

There’s a girl here on cruise who does that with me.

Not really in a rude way. But in a way that reads to me she doesn’t put much merit into it. Not because she thinks I’m dumb or anything, just that she doesn’t really like me. Or that she finds me annoying. One or the other.

Either way, she does it. And she doesn’t really hold conversation with me when I try to strike one. I ask a question. She answers. End of story.

Normally, I wouldn’t give a fuck. But when she’s one of the only 3 other people you can really hang with in your present situation, it’s kind of unavoidable.

We’ve only really known each other for a few days so I don’t really see what could have made her think of me that way.

Admittedly, she’s not exactly the friendliest of people. But she’s getting along great with the other two girls and whom I’ve known for a while already. Us three are very similar so I don’t really see how I’m different…

I dunno. It just kind of irks me cuz it’s honestly the LAST thing we all need since we’ve only started our time together. I’m just hoping it all lightens up after a bit.

I just needed to vent a bit.

Screwed Over

I love being in the military, It’s been my dream.

But for the second summer in a row, they have messed up my summer cruise orders. Last year, they changed my orders 3 times. I went from going to Bangor, WA for a sub cruise, to a cruise in the Med, to one in Florida then ended up in Norfolk. Where I live…

I didn’t even get my orders till midnight the night before. The whole things sucked so hard.

This time around, I’m in Oceana which isn’t much farther away but I’ve resigned myself to it. At least I’ll be with a squadron and right next to the beach.

But I haven’t gotten my orders yet. Because, apparently, they were fucked up and had to be sent back. Which has the potential of meaning I may not even be with my squadron. They may screw me over again and send me to a ship in Norfolk.

I know that’s more of a worse case scenario, but the fact is that it could happen.

Which is bullshit because according to everyone else I’m the only one this seems to keep happening to.

Honestly, if this is representative of how my luck will go in the real navy, I’ll probably go SWO and just leave as soon as my 4 years are up.

Because it’s not worth it. I’m a flexible person and i know the navy is always liable to throw you for a loop. But I cannot handle having my plans change ALL THE TIME. It’s not how I work. Every once in a while is fine. But considering I’ve been screwed over in some way every summer since getting into ROTC, I don’t think I have a good track record going.

It’s just bullshit.